Do not go gentle into that good night

Dylan Thomas, 1914 – 1953

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Mid-week favorites

Wow, it’s March already! Next month is National Lettering Writing month and I am taking on a challenge to send a piece of mail out for every day of the month.

I’m participating in Egg Press and Hello Lucky’s letter writing campaign – Write_On. I donated to their Indiegogo campaign – check it out here!

I have ordered some of these lovely stamps from USPS – Coastal Birds Postcard stamps and these Gifts of Friendship stamps with the lovely cherry blossom trees in DC illustrated.

Been loving the gold trend lately as well – got myself a Midori brass ruler, this Nate Berkus gold Swingline stapler and this gorgeous gold paper scissors that I have had my eye on from Angela Liguori.

I might have to get this trash bin for the office space since it’s brass-y.

Food favorites lately, anything Asian and spicy. Missing Singapore food again. Story of my life.

Drink favorite – Homemade Honey Milk Boba tea. Made with fresh boba.

I listened to this podcast episode that was featured on Love+Radio. It moved me. It’s a story about a mum who is learning to grow with her transgendered 7 year old daughter. My heart felt for this mum and I think that she is so very brave and amazing.

Lately I’ve been thinking about friendship again. I reconnected with an old friend but her life seems to always need attention that I feel that we never talk about me and how I do at all. Sigh. She is an old friend but this is an old habit. How do you find a balance with your friendships? I would like to be there for her but it just seems a bit one-sided. Do I tell her?

Spring is almost here, I’m counting down. 26 days to a sunny vacation. It’s been too long!

Suddenly Fall

It’s suddenly fall here in the PNW. I imagined that the transition would be slower but it just became. I’m not complaining. I can smell the warm spices, feel the cool air in the evenings and see the beautiful changing colors. I said it before but I’ll say it again, this is my favorite time of the year!

Don’t you love New York in the fall? It makes me wanna buy school supplies. I would send you a bouquet of newly sharpened pencils if I knew your name and address. On the other hand, this not knowing has its charms.” – from You Got Mail

Dreamy. Stationery in a romantic fashion. It’s time to watch this movie again. Do you have a favorite movie for this time of the year?

This morning, I had one of those green chile chicken tamales and I wanted to whisk my family off to New Mexico for some green chile goodness. I want this.

I feel like I’m floating on a cloud this morning. A happy one even though works has been increasingly busy and stress-filled. I think it’s partly to do with my meditative practice, I really cannot expound the benefits of it more. 10-15 minutes of my day for clarity.

This animation from Headspace about the blue sky has been one that has helped me through some foggy days lately.

As for other fall loves, I’m not a fan of Pumpkin Spiced Lattes but am glad they arrive to announce the season. I also think that one can over-“pumpkin spice”. I look forward to jumping in leave piles with Sagan, holding Mike’s hand to feel warmer in the cold and snuggling up with a throw on our sofa to binge watch Downton Abbey (I have not been up to speed with the episodes) or the Star Wars trilogy (the ones that only really count).

Summer-Fall Favorites

I have been loving green smoothies lately. My favorite recipes include spinach, ginger, pear and coconut water. When I want something creamier, I add a couple of spoons of dried milk powder (full fat, of course!). It gives me protein without the fake sweetness of protein powders. This is the one that I use.

I recently found out that I am sensitive to gluten. Not so sensitive that I would be sick eating it but enough so that my gut would be bloated and inflamed. I love gluten, but am thankful to live in an age where gluten-free is widely available.

I did mention loving The Mind of a Chef (PBS) on Netflix. The episodes in Season 3 with Magnus Nilsson most intrigued me. I have to try a Mahogany Clam in this lifetime.

The mornings are a little darker now and the evenings a little cooler. I’m thinking about spiced cake, warming soups and snuggly evenings.

Currently soundtrack: Lord of the Rings – Fellowship of the Ring soundtrack (it’s getting to be about that time of the year when we re-watch the trilogy) – particularly Concerning Hobbits 🙂

So far

It’s been 3 weeks since I’ve gone primal. This is a permanent lifestyle change for me. This is not temporary.

Things I have learned since:

  • Lard, bacon grease, coconut oil and ghee are all delicious and good fats. Frying and cooking with these fats satiate you in ways you have never imagined.
  • Grass-fed meat really does taste different, and you don’t need much of it to feel full either.
  • Eat mindfully. Think about how you feel after you have consumed certain foods, you can hear your body tell you what it prefers.
  • When you have more energy, you automatically incorporate more movement into your day. I get more done, I have more play time with S.
  • Dried fruit can be too much sugar so change up your trail mix to incorporate more nuts and coconut chips.
  • Coconuts are very good for you.
  • Carbohydrates make us fat. Fat does not.
  • Long hours on a treadmill at a gym does not help your body function better. Intense functional workouts that push you to the extreme are the most effective. I’m not a Crossfitter (yet) but I’ve seen how it has helped M.

I am not one to tell you what to think or eat. However, if you find yourself unsuccessful with keeping your weight down with constant working out and reducing fat, I ask you to question why. It’s not your fault or bad genes that you can’t seem to fight this battle. Challenge conventional wisdom. Don’t believe everything without looking at the data. You owe it to yourself.

“I blame carbohydrates.” – Me

Transcendental

I can tell that it is the early evening because of how much sunshine is coming through the front windows. Sagan is sleeping quietly in the swing that we call magic (he almost always falls asleep every time we put him in it). I actually have a couple of minutes when I am not holding the baby or the breast pump. My neck and shoulders are less achy, I think I am getting used to holding the baby and looking down at him as he nurses. My incision from the c-section has healed well and I am off the pain meds. Our little family unit is gradually coming together, mostly it is a question of feed, change, burp or entertain. It is easier in the day time to navigate these cues from the little guy, at night, it is mostly a fumble. Still I think we are doing okay.

My mum has been a blessing to have around, she cooks all our meals, keeps the house clean and is always more than happy to hold and entertain the baby. I am one lucky girl. I have such wonderful support.

I also wanted to thank all of you for your overwhelming well wishes and gifts, your offers of help and support as we learn how to take care of our new little one. It has been such a new and slightly harrowing experience for us but whenever we look into those tiny soulful eyes or hear his little coo, we swoon. It becomes all worth it. I am aware of how time flies and am learning to cherish each moment, groggily.

What is sleep when you can hold this little face close to your chest?

Contemplative

I’m still here. It’s been an introspective time for me lately. I don’t mean to worry you, my dear friends. Sometimes life just takes you on a different path and you must find it in yourself to learn the way. I know that my heart is trying to get me to listen. Believe me, it is only this knowledge that helps me get through some of the days.

I miss you all.

Thank you, mum!

I wanted to wish my mum a very Happy Mother’s Day! Mum, your love and concern will never go unnoticed or unappreciated. I am very excited about this new phase in your life – so much closer to us!

I love you!

“Mothers hold their children’s hands for a short while, but their hearts forever.”