Looking up

Gingko in the sky

I have been looking up a lot lately. Maybe it’s because the sky is so blue these days or maybe it’s all this thinking I’ve been doing. There is not much to tell at this time but I feel that I am embarking on an important journey soon.

“More important than the quest for certainty is the quest for clarity.” – Francois Gautier

Wholly unconnected

My favorite quote from Pride & Prejudice; a good reminder for me to choose my happiness over everything else.

“I am only resolved to act in that manner, which will, in my own opinion, constitute my happiness, without reference to you, or to any person so wholly unconnected with me.”

Merry Christmas

I have to admit that I do enjoy the cold and wintry Christmasses that I experience here but I will always miss being back in Singapore this time of year. It’s hard to be away from home and all you love most.

Merry Christmas, everyone and maybe next year we will be together again.

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I’m dreaming tonight
Of a place that I love
Even more than I usually do
And although I know
It’s a long road back
I promise you

I’ll be home for Christmas
You can count on me
Please have snow
And mistletoe
And presents under the tree

Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love light gleams
And I’ll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams

Please have snow
And mistletoe
And presents under the tree

Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love light gleams
And I’ll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams
If only in my dreams

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Security

Tomorrow will have an island. Before night
I always find it. Then on to the next island.
These places hidden in the day separate
and come forward if you beckon.
But you have to know they are there before they exist.

Some time there will be a tomorrow without any island.
So far, I haven’t let that happen, but after
I’m gone others may become faithless and careless.
Before them will tumble the wide unbroken sea,
and without any hope they will stare at the horizon.

So to you, Friend, I confide my secret:
to be a discoverer you hold close whatever
you find, and after a while you decide
what it is. Then, secure in where you have been,
you turn to the open sea and let go.

William Stafford

Exuberant

Strawberry Flower

Joyously unrestrained and enthusiastic – because life presents so much to us, we just have to learn how to accept its gifts.

Reflection

I had been reading Julia Child’s My Life in France this past weekend. I knew little of her life besides what I saw on her cooking shows and I’m glad to gain a different perspective of her. I especially like these words of hers:

Upon reflection, I decided I had three main weaknesses: I was confused (evidenced by a lack of facts, an inability to coordinate my thoughts , and an inability to verbalize my ideas); I had a lack of confidence, which caused me to back down from forcefully stated positions; and I was overly emotional at the expense of careful, “scientific” thought. I was thiry-seven years old and still discovering who I was. – pg 67

She described me, without even knowing who I was. Her story gives me hope that I can still find my true calling some day.

Grow Old with Me

Peppered throughout our wedding program and invites were quotations that were along the lines of John Lennon’s song “Grow Old with Me”. I think that there is something about a couple growing old together and going through all that life dishes out that appealed to us. It was a challenge that we both wanted to take on when we realized that we couldn’t live without each other.

I love this version of the song by The Postal Service.

Grow old along with me
The best is yet to be
When our time has come
We will be as one” – John Lennon

Star stuff

We are made of star stuff.” – Carl Sagan


Carl Sagan, Mike’s favorite nerd, was born today in 1934.

For Mike.

Trap


“I’ve been thinking about what a trap it is, to do well, but not well enough, so that you never have a chance to think about anything else.”Lori Carson

I love what she pens down because I feel what she is describing.

At this point in my life, I think I am doing well but how do I push out of this comfort zone to do better, to do what I’m meant to. I’m beginning to think that I am not meant to do just one thing. That I won’t really have a thing but a multitude of things. At times, that isn’t good enough for me because I keep searching for that one thing. But really, who’s to say there should only be ONE thing?

I only hope that I will always try to challenge my comfort zone and become comfortable in trying many new things, until I feel like I have made good use of my life.

“The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation.”Henry D Thoreau

You ask me


you ask me to be candid
but when i agree
you question my intent
my honesty

my words are simple
but your view is skewed
you think too much
but not for your good

dear one,
when you reject what life throws you
failure is in staying blind
to what truly holds you

and you, you who cradle happiness
but cannot accept its possibilities
almost afraid it will unveil its guise
you’re not really happy

i will not let you
use a heart that’s true
and wield it like a sword
you think you own

you’re dead to the future
if you can’t let go of the past.

– me